IGME Files

I’m gonna shake off this feeling I think I have no control over.  Eto na naman ako, I’m getting and looking busier (at wala namang baryang natatanggap), tapos bibigyan na naman ako ng sakit sa ulo.  Is love just a chimera?  Or in denial ako?  Jaded? 

About to make my indie short film debut in three days.  Scared shitless.  But I am smelling a LIFETIME career ahead for me.  I don’t want to envision myself as a "hungry artist."  I want to have finer things in life, like travelling, eating out, while still retaining that hungry creative spirit.  Acting mad as hell to heaven and hell back.      

Yesterday morning (about 2:15 am), I was boxed by an unkown teener at a darker spot waiting for a jeepney ride at Isetann, Cubao.  I don’t want to go into the details, basta masakit pa rin ang right ear ko.  First time in 26 years!  After I went home, minura kita sa isip at salita nang pagkarami-raming beses.  And I realized I have no time to hate.  Naawa na lang ako, I could conjure countless stories why you did what you have to do.   Hmm, another interesting story for my otherwise drab love life. 

Became a ninong for the second time yesterday to Tosha, Eleanor’s daughter.  Another ninang-friend suggested I should have my sperm donor; subtly hearing the words "sayang naman ang lahi ko" from her.   Hmm, I think it made my day. And after seeing Tosha and cuddling the porcelain-skinned just beautiful infant girl, I felt renewed despite sleepless and restless days.   

Okay, here’s my resolve to my OBJECT.  After I finish my film after this week and think about you still, I will definitely be swayed to whatever powers you possess.  You make me feel brand new.  Sige na nga, wala na akong maisip na term!  A reminder to those wishing to get hold of me, be interesting naman.  It doesnt hurt if you’re the mysterious type too.  My OBJECT has done the latter to me. 

Basta, I felt you.  Did you feel my touch?  Did I mention that was jaded earlier?  Hehe